LAYERS....

L A Y E R S.

Have you ever wondered what happened to the person you knew 10 years ago and realized how much they've changed ? How much time has changed both of you ? Or have you ever wondered what happened to the "old you" as opposed to the "new you", where in case point the old you used to be so much more happier, so much more optimistic, so much more daring? And the new you, for that matter is completely on the other end of the world, and you realize, that somehow, somewhere along life's path, you've even lost track of who you are.

There is a fine line between who you are and who you want to be. We all want to be the person everyone else is comfortable with, the life and soul of the party. But the question is, are WE comfortable with who we might or might not have become ? Technically, all of us are practically buried within ourselves. By layers. Yes, you read me right. Layers. Layers of hurt, frustration, depression, anger, boredom and defense. We're so layered by everything we do that we're buried underneath those layers. Think about it, not only are we layered by our emotions, we're also layering each and everything that we do. When was the last time you concentrated on the one thing you're doing instead of doing two things at the same time ?

"The tragedy of life is not death, but what we let die within us while we still live"

By living amidst all the layers we have buried ourselves under, we're only making it harder for "us" to find ourselves. You find yourself wallowing in resentment and self-pity and lashing out when you don't even know what got you pissed off in the first place. We hang on to all the layers we have built under our defense and shut ourselves off completely from getting hurt. There's the catch. Sure, you can shut yourself out from the cold, cruel world and salvage what's left of your petty emotions and keep from getting hurt. But if you keep out the dark, you're also keeping out the light. You can't have one without the other. That's balancing. Enjoy the happiness, that flows into your life, without suspicion. Enjoy letting people keep you happy, compliment you without suspicion. See things the way they are. Don't analyze.

I realized how layered I have become when I looked back and saw how much the world had changed, to my view, that is. And that's when I remembered, that the world is just your mirror. When we define someone, judge someone, in truth, we're only defining and judging ourselves.